My husband, Jeff, and I met in 2006 and married  in 2007.  We celebrated our 10th Wedding Anniversary this year.  I feel so fortunate that we have a wonderful and strong relationship. However, we have spent over half of our marriage on a journey to become parents.  After a year of trying to conceive and no success, we sought medical help from our OB/GYN in 2012 and were later referred to a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) doctor in 2013. The result was months of Clomid/Femara, followed by four Intrauterine Inseminations (IUI) and four In Vitro Fertilizations (IVF). Four years later and still no success, we looked for help from a different RE in Colorado, at the end of 2016.  Here we have now done two egg retrievals and one (our 5th) IVF. Between my doctors and related health practitioners I have had about one hundred appointments to date, plus taken thousands of medications and injections.  We are still on our path to reaching our goal, and are trying to stay strong and positive, and learn what we can throughout the process.

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Our Journey to Parenthood…

I stand in front of the mirror and look at my reflection, turning this way and that, imagining a soft swell in my belly.   I gently press my hand there and move it in small circles, willing our baby into existence.  Rubbing and wishing, like one would for a genie in a lamp.  Could it […]


We Are Ready For You

Two years ago I wrote about ‘Our Journey to Parenthood‘.  Now two years later, and four years of trying to conceive, our journey continues.  It is a journey of highs and lows, and incredible insights.  I believe sharing our raw emotions and lessons we’ve learned is how we connect as humans.  It can be hard to […]


Thankful for those little things….

I had a tough day yesterday.  It overwhelmed me and I got angry and frustrated. The disappointment came when we learned in an email from our fertility center that they have cancelled our third round of IVF.  They said we are going to have to delay it for at least two to four months, due to complications from […]


Our baby journey continues…

I step out of bed and pad across the soft carpet onto the cool tile floor.  I glance down at the calendar on my counter and next to today’s date, I see in bright pink ink the two hearts I have drawn and the words ‘ ♥ ♥ PREG TEST’.  Today is a big day for us!  I […]


Strength and Faith

How do we stay strong during disappointments and sadness? How do we stay faithful when it seems our prayers are not being answered? I drag myself along the trail. My feet plod slowly on the dusty path…thud, thud, thud. They feel like they are made of lead. My heart is heavy too, pulling me downwards […]


A poem for National Infertility Awareness Week

April 23-29, 2017 is National Infertility Awareness Week (NIAW). The CDC tells us that 15% of couples, more than 1 in 8, struggle to conceive. This seems like a surprisingly​ high number. But as I count those of my closest friends who have struggled with infertility, and run out of fingers on both hands, I […]